SA
Hi Tony! How are you doing today?
T
I’m just wrapping up work for my “traditional” job so transitioning out of that “work mode.”
SA
Oh yes, I feel that big time. I also am just ending the day with my ‘job that pays the bills’. What are some ways you ease into that transition?
T
I find it helpful to have markers to delineate beginnings and endings. I find that a lot of folks are having challenges with blurred lines/lack of boundaries with all the working from home during the pandemic. As much as I can, I like to go for a walk around my neighborhood at the end of the work day.
SA
I am definitely learning how to be better at establishing my boundaries with work, it’s so easy, especially while on our devices, to be constantly plugged in. And particularly, I’m finding it increasingly exhausting, as someone who uses social media a lot for work, to be online at a time where there is such an overload of content that requires deep emotional engagement. As a practitioner of meditation, what advice might you have for folks online who are feeling drained by this content overload – particularly, folks who are looking to online spaces for education?
T
I can relate to the temptation to “zone out” and watch an hour, or two, or more of Netflix at the end of the day. Like junk food though, that doesn’t really serve. Neither does reading 10 articles that all say variations of how we don’t know anymore about the pandemic than we did yesterday. Let’s all give ourselves more permission to unplug and not feel obligated to always be wired. Moving our bodies, whether with exercise, stretching, or walking is a helpful tool for grounding in ourselves. That said, the internet is a powerful tool, and there are ways to utilize it with mindfulness. For folks who are seeking online resources for education and growth, I recommend curating by looking to authentic and credible practitioners (I follow different people depending on if I want to learn about meditation or social justice or the intersection of the two). For example, I study with Arinna Weisman and Lama Rod Owens who both teach with a perspective that there is no true liberation until all beings are liberated. That resonates with me.
SA
It really is amazing how technology has the potential and power to increase our ability as humans to be mindful. When I began my own healing journey, I was heavily reliant on guided meditation apps that allowed me to tap into the present moment. I soon realized that, meditation can be a dissociative space that doesn’t allow for evolution or growth if not accompanied by a more holistic approach to healing. At the start of the pandemic, it was very interesting, and troubling to observe a collective anxiety wrap our community. Understandable, of course at the beginning when we were left with no answers or support from the state, one thing that was coming up a lot for me was how many folks who are committed to participating in the wellness industry, succumbed to this anxiety completely. I began to think more about wellness as it has been sold to us as a self serving tool that teaches us to put up with uncomfortable situations in the moment, but does not foster a sustainable healing experience. What thoughts might you have about this and the commodification of wellness as a whole?
T
While I rationally understand the commodification of wellness given that we live in a capitalist construct, I don’t believe that is the only approach. The more we look to make meditation or other “wellness” practices into products, the further we get from the real awakening and healing that is the birthright of all beings. Part of my calling to offer and guide meditation is that it is ultimately free. It doesn’t require any equipment. Yes, apps and teachers are helpful. Anyone can practice meditation without having a penny in their pocket.
When we talk about commodification, I don’t see it in a silo. It also helps to look at it through the lens of colonization and cultural appropriation. The idea that some individuals choose to take a “technology” like meditation and then turn it into a self-help book while stepping forward from a place of “I” ego, without giving acknowledgement and recognition to the lineages and traditions of origin, is disappointing. I do see value in people feeling less stress. And, I think it is limiting to only approach meditation as secular wellness, without applying the dharma/ethics of taking responsibility for how we show up in the world.
SA
I really want to stick with this idea of the colonization and appropriation of meditation, healing and wellness. If a big part of an ethical spiritual practice is coming into alignment and acknowledgement with the fundamental practice of life, our personal traumas are in relation to the traumas of the world. So where you talk about the ethics on taking responsibility for how we choose to show up in this world, I believe that is a pillar of healing work. As displaced peoples, as settlers on stolen land who exist within this system of white supremacy, it is hard for some of us to understand our own colonial histories when we have been traumatized by a system that shames our people and shows little value for our cultures and ways of knowing. When it comes to the initial process of decolonizing wellness, how did that journey begin for you?
T
Thanks for the question. That’s a lot to cover, let me see how I can provide a snapshot. The process started for me with an internal knowing, a whisper from inside, a nudge from my intuition. When I first sat in spaces that fall under the broad category of wellness, I looked (and not just with my eyes) to see if the space holders were in alignment and integrity. If someone presented from a position of patriarchy, of absolutes, that was activating. I set an intention to connect to communities of human beings that are committed to honoring the truth that awakening, healing, and wisdom aren’t objects that can be bought and sold. To decolonize wellness, we all need to face individual and collective trauma. It can’t just be “love and light” all the time. It takes integrity and resilience to be with our woundings while at the same time acknowledging the ways in which we are complicit in systems of oppression. The story that sharing our truths around experiences of victimization as making us weak is a tool of oppressors to dominate through isolation and shame. There has been suffering throughout human history. I believe that, if we want to transmute suffering, we can’t disassociate or ignore the pain. Feeling the pain, as hard as it is, can allow us to stop identifying with it. And part of feeling the pain is in sitting with how wellness has been colonized and commodified by modernity.
SA
Wow, I never really interrogated the idea of sharing truth/point of weakness as a tool used by oppressors – thank you for sharing that.
As someone who has recently begun their own journey in unlearning the harmful conditioning imposed by religious dogma, toxic masculinity and the ego state as a whole, what advice do you have for folks who are now embarking on committing to a practice of wellness that is both anti colonial and pro libertory. Particularly, for folks who still have to exist within the structures that oppress, say, young queer, trans, Black, Indigenous and people of color who live at home and are seeking healing yet feeling confined, daily, and might not have immediate access to a community of others on similar journeys?
T
I have empathy and compassion for folks who do not have the privilege of choice and find themselves living within oppressive structures on the home level, especially young QTBIPOC family (I identify that way, except for the “young” part). One suggestion that immediately comes to mind is to borrow books from the library or to read free literature online. Speaking from my own place of heritage, Thich Nhat Hanh is a teacher with whom I resonate. Vietnam has a history of being colonized by China, France, and the United States. For him to survive the trauma of war, of witnessing spiritual brothers literally setting themselves on fire as spiritual practice, and to dedicate his life to the liberation of all beings is beyond inspirational. I find it moving to know that Thich Nhat Hanh and Martin Luther King, Jr. were in correspondence and held each other in great esteem. And that they learned from the non-violent social organizing practices of Gandhi. Read their words and really invite them into the heart. In that sacred space, remember that you are not alone. None of us are ever alone. Love is what connects us.
SA
Reading about Thich Nhat Hanh and Martin Luther King, Jr.’s relationship has been especially helpful for me over the past few weeks in thinking about solidarity building as fostered by internal transformative work. Thank you for that, Tony.
To end, I just want to ask if you might have some words on the importance of meditation as a tool in the revolution?
T
For me, meditation is a path towards liberation. As long as we are still conditioned with internalized colonization and other forms of oppression, how can we fully engage in the revolution when our minds, hearts, and souls are still locked up? I have found that meditation and compassion are woven together. I ask myself, if I am committed to compassion, then what is more compassionate than abolition (of the prison-industrial complex)?
Tony is blessed to train with elders and teachers of sacred lineages who authorize him to facilitate safe containers so that others may access their own Truth. Over the past five years, he has guided meditation for hundreds of people across North America. As Tony occupies the intersectionality of being a person of color (POC) and queer (LGBT), he offers up a fiercely compassionate approach based on his own lived experiences, which can especially resonate with members of marginalized communities that seek to stand in the full power of their authentic selves.